Chasing Onederland.

If you have never been thin... then obese, it will be hard for you to understand how important it is to live in Onederland. 

Yes, I spelled it right.  *ONE* as in the one hundreds rather than the two hundreds (or more).  It can be a long chase... *ONE* likes to sneak around... hide... disappear for a while.  Still, the chase goes on.

I've caught sight of it.  Oh, yes. In 2009, I came within 35 pounds of the elusive 199.

Then, in a moment of extreme stupidity, I watched it flee.  The dreaded numbers just came creeping back.  I ALLOWED myself to fail -- I did nothing to stop it.  Let's be real: I aided and abetted and encouraged it.  I failed simply because I gave myself permission to fail.

I'm not going to do that again.

I give permission to myself to succeed.

I don't care what anyone says: There are things you cannot do when you are obese (fat).  And there are oh so many things that you want to do.

I'm not perfect and I know I'll have days when things don't go the way I want them to go. I'll persevere.  I'll move forward. I'll make it work to my advantage.

I'm back at my beloved Spark People -- tracking my weight, my nutrition, my activity / fitness.  I participate. That's the best way for me.  I am involved and I am honest about my struggles.

I weigh in on Sunday mornings.  I have Mike read it out to me (to keep the desire to cheat at a minimum), then I go to my weight tracker and type in those numbers.

I've lost 10 pounds in a little over 3 1/2 weeks.  Low and slow.  That's okay by me.  I didn't gain this weight in a day and I won't lose it in a day, either.

If you'd like to join me,  I'd love to have new Spark Friends!  I'll support you and cheer you on!

Oh... *ONE*derland?  That's about 82 pounds away.  It's going to take some time... but it IS going to happen.

Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.
~~ 1 Corinthians 10:31 ~~